1. |
But If You Step Back...
01:10
|
|||
2. |
Paradox
03:01
|
|||
|
And I'll write these words, coming from a dark space
As I contemplate, how I got here in the first place
Is this pain so real
Will this fear I feel ever
Fade away or am I stuck with you
I'm learning how to cope with what I feel
I'm struggling now to fix what isn't real
Is it you
Is it me
Will I ever be free
Am I trapped here in my own head
I'm in doubt, no way out
Might as well be the end
And I'll never leave this bed
Back and forth as I battle this vice
I'll go from happiness to wondering why nothing is right
Am I, alright
Is this, my fight
You're so sick
I'm just fine
Paradox
In my mind now
Upside down
Right side up
Words backwards
I don’t feel so fine
I'm learning how to cope with what I feel
I'm struggling now to fix what isn't real
Is it you
Is it me
Will I ever be free
Am I trapped here in my own head
I'm in doubt, no way out
Might as well be the end
And I'll never leave this bed
Lost in my doubt
Deep in my head
There's no way out
Stuck here again
Over and over and over
Toss back and forth
Words like a wall
Let no one in
Build them up tall
Over and over and over
Lost in my doubt
Deep in my head
There's no way out
Stuck here again
Over and over and over
Toss back and forth
Words like a wall
Let no one in
Build them up tall
Over and over and over
|
||||
3. |
Don't Call Me Your Bud
03:11
|
|||
|
Tick-tock, tick-tock
You sit on the edge
Of your hotel bed
As your time ticks on and on, again and again
Does it run through your head
Does it make sense this time
Two kids and a wife
Are you really that surprised
Oh what on earth was your hope for this
I hope you never forget the way you felt that night
I hope the taste of these words will never leave your lips
I hope the load you carry never loses weight
But I hope this sickness will not be your final fate
Now you're deep
You're deep in the mess you've bred
And now you'll sleep
You'll sleep alone in an empty bed
Now you're left
With the shattered remains of a once happy home
Do you really enjoy
This makeshift hotel room you call your own
I hope you never forget the way you felt that night
I hope the taste of these words will never leave your lips
I hope the load you carry never loses weight
But I hope this sickness will not be your final fate
You've got a hole in your chest
So go and fill it up
You can pour the concrete
You can build your guard
But I'll crack you open so wide
And I'll drill your chest
Until I find your heart
Open wide, I know it's there
Face your sins, I know you're scared
But there is peace in admitting you were wrong
And if you want to find it, just know it's free
I hope the taste of these words will never leave your lips
I hope that one day you will knock down all your walls
You're not getting better if you're staying the same
What'll it be - hopeless or changed
|
||||
4. |
Unfamiliar Home
04:31
|
|||
|
There's a train that always came through our town
When all else was quiet, when the sun went down
Sometimes I wondered where it's headed, where it's been
Was it coming or going, was it the start or the end
And there's a tower that would ring downtown
When all else is quiet, it wouldn't make a sound
Sometimes I wondered when it rang or clanged
Was it beginning or stopping, was it the start or the end
I hate to say it lately
To think of that train or clock
But At the end of my time, I know it's easy to see
A vibrant world shouting back at me
I'm like that train, unsure of where I'm headed
I wanna understand my purpose that's embedded
I'm like that clock, so quiet in the evening
Wishing I could be with you instead of leaving
Well I could speak in metaphors all night if I had to
But the point is that I'm leaving, with a somber attitude
Can't say for sure where I'll be or what I'll do
I just need you to know, that my thanks is to you
I hate to say it lately
To think of that train or clock
But At the end of my time, I know it's easy to see
A vibrant world shouting back at me
I'm like that train, unsure of where I'm headed
I wanna understand my purpose that's embedded
I'm like that clock, so quiet in the evening
Wishing I could be with you instead of leaving
We're in and out of heartache
Like a hurricane of emotion
The storm has come and run it's course
But we're still drowning in an ocean
It's a curious thing, when it never feels okay
A familiar, former home, yet nothing's the same
It wasn't this place that filled me with pride
It was the people around me that made me feel alive
We're still drowning in an ocean, an ocean
We're still drowning in an ocean
An Ocean, an ocean
We're still drowning in an ocean
An Ocean, an ocean
We're still drowning in an ocean
An Ocean, an ocean
We're still drowning
We're still drowning
|
||||
5. |
||||
|
I'm over being sorry
Yeah there's nothing left to say
They'll never understand
It had to be this way
Pry the knife from my back
Stitch the wound myself
Take a look in the mirror and reevaluate yourself
If I spoke too soon
Excuse my speech
And if I let them down
I'll be out of their reach
If I caused you hurt
Then it's all the same
But I refuse to be a body bag
That holds all of this shame
Watch these fears, they fade away
Hang your words, they're dead to me
The condescending words you spoke
They echo through my mind with every note
I understand that I'm the enemy
You'll have those scars for eternity
But did you ever think it was a two way street
The pain I caused, it came back to me
So frame me high and I'll be the bad guy
You bled all of my sympathy dry
If I spoke my mind
You'd say I was wrong
And if I held it in
You'd say I lied for so long
Well your knife, it's in my back
And my blood, it's on your floor
So come on, come on
I'll soak it all up
And apologize some more
Watch these fears, they fade away
Hang your words, they're dead to me
The condescending words you spoke
They echo through my mind with every note
I understand that I'm the enemy
You'll have those scars for eternity
But did you ever think it was a two way street
The pain I caused, it came back to me
So frame me high and I'll be the bad guy
You bled all of my sympathy dry
Well your knife's in my back
And my blood's on your floor
So I'll soak it all up
And apologize some more
|
||||
6. |
Acquaintance
03:57
|
|||
|
I wonder how you've been
What you're doing these days
I hope that you’re happy
I hope you found your way
I wonder in passing
If you ever think of me
If you still have the costume
You wore on Halloween
Oh, I miss the way we used to be
Before it crashed tragically
Oh, I miss the friend I used to have
I miss the way we used to laugh
I wish I never came to Berea that day
I wish that I had taken more time to be okay
I wish I never hurt you in the way that I did
But most of all I hate how our friendship is nonexistent
It’s awkward conversations
And the small talk it makes me so sick
You know we took our chances
Now we’re nothing but acquaintances
Oh, I miss the way we used to be
Before it crashed tragically
Oh, I miss the friend I used to have
I miss the way we used to laugh
Oh, I miss the things you used to say
We could talk about anything
Oh, well I guess this is how it has to be
But I still blame this all on Journey
I wish that I could find a way to make this right
I wish your family didn't see me in a negative light
I wish that things were back to when we never felt this way
I wish I had my friend back
I miss that every single day
God I miss that every single day
I know that you're just fine
And I'm quite the same
Time's done some healing and we're both to blame
I hope you've found some peace in this beautiful life
I hope you know that I miss your friendship, all feelings aside
|
||||
7. |
||||
|
Hey pretty baby
I hate to see you there so down and out
Could I get a word in
I know you can’t stand feeling this way now
Hey little lady
I know that you don’t know me all that well
But I heard you've been struggling
And I heard that you could use a little help
With all the negativity that’s in your head
It ain’t a surprise that you're feeling so dead
Life is so short, but you can’t deny
You’re sick of all the ways it has you feeling tonight
Hey pretty baby
I hope you know that you can turn this all around
No one said it was easy
The mind’s a dangerous place, it’s a battleground
No one wants to be stuck there
Between their ears all hours of the night
I know it’s more than a mindset
But if you think you can or can’t, well baby you’re right
With all the negativity that’s in your head
It ain’t a surprise with you feeling so dead
Life is so short, but you can’t deny
That you’re sick of all the ways it has you feeling tonight
But I’m only just a boy you don’t know that well
And nothing I could say would ever fix your health
Change only happens if you want it to
But you gotta believe, gotta believe in you
With all the negativity that’s in your head
It ain’t a surprise that you're feeling so dead
Life is so short, but you can’t deny
You’re sick of all the ways it has you feeling tonight
But I’m only just a boy you don’t know that well
And nothing I could say would ever fix your health
Change only happens if you want it to
You gotta believe, gotta believe in you
|
||||
8. |
||||
|
Hey punk I see you walking tall
I bet you think you got her all, got her all figured out
Poor girl cuz she don’t know your love
Your love’s so fake it’s all for show
Too bad it took till now to know
That you’re not the man you seem
I bet you think you’ve got it all
You got into her head when all you wanted was into her bed
See I’ve seen guys like you before
You’ll twist those words into a poem that rips her heart out on the floor
But I hope one day you change
Her love
Is not your little game
To come and go as you please
Just taking what you want
And never giving her what she needs
She’s not your beck & call
She’s not your little tease
I hope you think again before you catch my fist between those teeth
Her love
Is not your little game
To come and go as you please
Just taking what you want
And never giving her what she needs
She’s not your beck and call
She’s not your little tease
Her love
Is not your little game
And it's not your little tease
I hope you think again
Her love
Is not your little game
To come and go as you please
Just taking what you want
And never giving her what she needs
She’s not your beck and call
She’s not your little tease
I hope you think again before you catch my fist between those teeth
Her love
Is not your little game
To come and go as you please
Just taking what you want
And never giving her what she needs
She’s not your beck and call
She’s not your little tease
I hope you think again
I hope you think again
|
||||
9. |
A Dog Named Fletcher
04:54
|
|||
|
I look around this room
Everything’s foreign
There’s nothing familiar to me
I just wanna go home
But I’m stuck on this table
Being stuck with a needle all night
She says that this won’t hurt a bit
This lady and her needle are full of shit
I’m in a cold, dark room
I don’t know where my family is at
Just yesterday I was living the dream
With a nice cold bowl of my favorite ice cream
I don’t feel so well today
Doc says my guts are wasting away
And if we don’t do something it’ll only get worse
Lady leave me alone
I just wanna go home
I haven’t eaten a thing
In a week or so
I just hope this doesn’t last
I know that somethings wrong
Cuz you won’t take me home and you won’t stop crying
Why are you crying
She says that this won’t hurt a bit
This lady and her lab coat are full of shit
I’m in a cold, dark room
I don’t know where my family is at
Just yesterday I was living the dream
With a nice cold bowl of my favorite ice cream
I don’t feel so well today
Doc says my guts are wasting away
And if we don’t do something it’ll only get worse
Lady leave me alone
I just wanna go home
If I make it out of this one alive
I’ll never take it for granted
I know the surgery wasn’t cheap tonight
You’re the reason that I’m still standing
I hope you know I love you all
For everything you gave to me
You took me in when I was small
You showed me what a man can be
And as long as I’m still kicking
You will always hear me say
There’s no where else I’d rather be
Than right here with my family
I’m in a cold, dark room
I don’t know where my family is at
Just yesterday I was living the dream
With a nice cold bowl of my favorite ice cream
I don’t feel so well today
Doc says my guts are wasting away
And if we don’t do something it’ll only get worse
Lady leave me alone
I just wanna go home
I just wanna go home
I just wanna go home
|
||||
10. |
Thin-Skinned
03:51
|
|||
|
I got a secret but I'll let it go
I bet that they don't even know
That my skin isn't quite as tough as I proclaim
I got a feeling that I can’t let go
I bet one day that I’ll explode
Cuz my skin’s not as rough as I would make it seem
I bet they think that I can take it
I bet that they'd never think twice
But I don't wanna cause a scene
And I don't wanna be dramatic
I got a secret but I'll let it go
I bet that they don't even know
That my skin isn't quite as tough as I proclaimed
But I gotta say
Eventually
It's gonna take its toll on me
But I don't wanna cause a scene
And I don't wanna be dramatic
I bet they think that I don't mind it
I bet that they'd never think twice
But I don't wanna cause a scene
And I don't wanna be dramatic
Well peel my skin
It's not so thick
I got a secret but I'll let it go
I bet that they don't even know
That my skin isn't quite as tough as I proclaimed
But I gotta say
Eventually
It's gonna take its toll on me
But I don't wanna cause a scene
And I don't wanna be dramatic
And sometimes
I feel
Like I just wanna scream
Like oh my gosh take it down a notch so I can breathe
And sometimes
I feel
Like I just wanna yell
Cuz I can only laugh it off so long before they start to tell
Sincerity is sparse even rare
Most of the time I’ll act like I do not really care
The truth of it is, though I hate to admit
Well the truth of it is
Though I hate to admit
I typically care what you think quite a bit
|
||||
11. |
||||
|
You know I cannot stand the nights I'm chasing you home drunk
Or when a certain chinstrap runs his mouth, it leaves me feeling stunned
I'll never understand if they've got better things to do
So light your smokes and point them all towards me
Cuz I am just your lowly GDI
When I think about the ways you drive me up a wall
In the bigger picture of us both it makes them seem so small
Cuz love is not a feeling or a momentary high
But love's a conscious act we choose to never question why
So this is my promise
My way of telling you
There's more to this than feels, it's true
I know that pain that you've been through
But you know that I'm in this
For better or for worse
I'm gonna love you with all that I got
For the love of God quit taking shots
See that's the difference between him and between you and I
I'll never treat the one I love the way he did most nights
So let's be honest, take your pick, cuz most nights were that bad
From lashing out to constant doubt, it's oh so very sad
But a happy melody can't hide the darkness that's beneath
No really man, you're sick, so sick, please get the help you need
I'd heal your pain but sadly that's just not my place to say
I'll leave that to the one who put you here in the first place
So this is my promise
My way of telling you
There's more to this than feels, it's true
I know that pain that you've been through
But you know that I'm in this
For better or for worse
I'm gonna love you with all that I got
For the love of God quit taking shots
Ali's lighting hats on fire
Chloe's texting me at 4
Gleason's spreading rumors
From Ketler's basement floor
Andrew's having trouble wiping
Caleb's looking like Flat Stanley
Felipe's coming strong, but I love her oh so dearly
So this is my promise
My way of telling you
There's more to this than feels, it's true
I know that pain that you've been through
But you know
I'm gonna love you with all that I got
For the love of God quit taking shots
Felipe's coming strong, but I love you
|
||||
12. |
...You Just Might See It
04:32
|
|||
|
I thought I knew what it meant to be thankful
And I was sure as hell that what I had was enough
But God's got a funny way of breaking down our walls
And I've got this thorn in me that makes me feel so small
So here I lay
Watching the moon rise
And I'll give thanks
For each day of my life
I'm wishing my days didn't go by so quickly
The people that shaped me, their faces stick with me
So I'm learning now what it means to be thankful
And I was sure as hell that what I had was enough
But God's got a funny way of breaking down or walls
And I've got this thorn in me that makes me feel so small
And God's got a funny way of breaking our composure
My dad always told me, he just wants you closer
You see I
Never thought that I would feel this drained
So tired from the fight, white knuckles on my life
I’m letting go of what I think I should be
I’ll die myself
God, I’ll let you change me
And God's got a funny way
Of breaking down our walls
And I've got this thorn in me
That makes me feel so small
But we're all the same
The struggles that we face
Make us feel as though
We're not worthy of his grace
I know your pain
It feels so very real
But your worth is not embedded
In the way it makes you feel
|
||||
If you like Atlantic Wasteland, you may also like:
Rising Philadelphia band balance oversized pop punk hooks with vivid, intimate lyrics, presenting a raw, honest vision of guitar music.
go to album
Meandering guitars, laid-back vocals, and catchy choruses make this the perfect end of summer album.
go to album
All Day, Every Day, All Night
by Del Paxton
An emo masterwork that hones in on the brutal isolation of upstate New York.
go to album
Heartrending screamo with heart-on-sleeve lyrics from Bad Naps captures visceral emotions in razor-edged riffs & pained vocals.
go to album
Where the Heart Is
by Sweet Pill
A confident blend of emo, pop, and hardcore from the rising Philadelphia band, featuring introspective lyrics and churning melodies.
go to album
NOW THAT'S WHAT I CALL CLUB 85
by Club 85
A pop-punk compilation benefitting the beloved Club 85 venue in Hertfordshire, UK, featuring contributions from 32 bands.
go to album
Red Hot & Holy
by Sarah & the Safe Word
This Atlanta group have a unique take on Americana, bridging queer cabaret culture of the 1920s and '30s with punchy contemporary rock.
go to album
